This is addressed to you not by directly me but from everyone you have ever judged or mocked on the basis of how they look.
Firstly, I’d like to describe myself for a visual treat. I am a short, dark complexion girl with wavy average length hair. Let me open up to you and show you a vulnerable side of mine which you think doesn’t exist.
Due to a past event, I have been very conscious of how I look or you can say I have a major complex about it. You can comment on how awfully I performed in a math test in grade 9 or how I fail to put correct tense in my conversations and I won’t mind but if you ever call me ugly – Trust me, I overthink and take that one comment to a whole next level. This is how I am. Don’t you have insecurities? Don’t you have a side that you’re scared to show off? But hey, I am a human and I have flaws.
Thanks to a friend of mine who yesterday commented on a picture which I thought was really cute saying that I looked like a cartoon in it and I owed a lot to Snapchat filters. Other day, another friend told me how I liked to hid and cover myself up with 50 filters and an acquaintance commented saying that I really need to use Sunblock because I have become darker. Not just that, a cousin of mine once told me how white color makes me look darker, thus, since that day, I stopped wearing white. Everyone around me, be it my best friend, my friends, my family or a stranger stalking me, thinks that I am ugly. I looked beautiful on my brother’s wedding but hey nobody said that and you know what they told me? They told me how amazingly the makeup artist has worked and has given me that look.
I am tired. Oh no, EXHAUSTED actually. Exhausted daily trying to convince myself that I am beautiful. Thanks to my friend for his comment on my picture because it helped. It made me wonder am I really being fake. And the answer I got was Nope. I wasn’t. I am beautiful because I have never in my life mocked anyone intentionally or unintentionally. If you think you’re beautiful or good looking, go look yourself into the mirror and you’ll see yourself masked up with a million filters too. I will use filters, not because they make me look pretty, but because I just like to do that and I don’t need anyone to come and tell me that I shouldn’t. A filter doesn’t make me ugly or pretty. I am pretty and no one has the right to make me feel otherwise. Get over your insecurities first and then come and tell me about a new sunblock in market. Pretty and ugly are the two most over rated words. No one can make you feel pathetic about yourself if you don’t permit them too. Stop shaming and embarrassing people for how they look. Trust me, Filters wouldn’t exist if you’d make people feel that they are beautiful in their real self. Make them feel that way and they would stop hiding their original selves. Oh and do comment on my picture with another mocking statement because next time, I won’t delete it, I’d reply.
Written by Fatima Mustansir